It's an eternal scale that every mom tries to balance. It's the sneaking, sinking belly feeling that hits when the euphoria fades.
At least for me the thought process went something like...
I'm having a baby...I'm Having A Baby... I'M HAVING A BABY (celebrating, a few tears, some quick leave it to beaver flashes) and then came the Oh I'm having a baby. What are all the men in my office going to say, am I going to lose my job, can I afford this, and on and on and on. That part at least never faded for me. I still struggle to balance work and family on a daily basis. I work early and late so I can avoid any mid day guilt when I break to do carpool.
Lately it's been even worse. We made a choice on our son's school. We avoided the neighborhood public school and looked for somewhere that would challenge him without bankrupting our budget. We thought we found it in a charter school. So I made the commitment. I drove my son 15 miles north each day, fought 30-55 minutes of traffic home each day. Started getting up at 5:30 am to ensure I'm not sacrificing any work and tried to convince myself that I was over reacting when everything started going wrong.
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